I want to erase him from my memory. He doesn’t care about me. He never did and he never will. I want to tell him everything, from the complete bottom of my heart. I don’t know when I’ll be over him. I’m beginning to cry while typing this. I love him so much, it honestly hurts to type this, and know that I’ll never get that chance. I’ll never get that chance to be completely in your arms. No one elses. Just yours. I really hope you find what you’re looking for Troy. I know it’s not me. I know I’m not what anyone’s looking for. I won’t find anyone like you Troy, ever. You mean the world to me and more. I’m so scared Troy. I don’t want to ever lose you, and you’re not even mine. You’re gonna forget about me soon. You’ll meet other “bestfriends”. I’m gonna miss that title… That title that was literally, mine. I’m gonna miss our talks, about the girls you liked. No, it wasn’t a topic I liked to talk about… But it got us to talk. Troy Lake, I don’t know if the place in my heart for you will ever be replaced. 

Please know, I will never forget you. Even after all the pain you’ve caused me, you will always be the Troy Lake I fell in love with. 

& I love you… So much, Troy.

I hope one day I’ll give you the link to this blog. Just so you know, how much.♥