January 2012
1 post
100th post.
I just miss you. Every aspect of you. I miss your smile, your eyes, your presence. I just want to see you. I want to hug you so bad. I’m still not over you. I STILL like you. But I never see you…. Ever. Why do I still like you though? … I don’t know. It’s stupid. Every time I hear a story about you, I honestly just want to sit down and cry. You’ve broken my...
October 2011
1 post
Hey Troy, I uh...
I miss you alot. I kinda forgot who you were. But I still like you….
I’ve found someone else to like at the moment though.
He’s sweet.
I fell for him very quickly.
But he’s great.
I don’t have a chance with him.
But I never had a chance with you. So, no change there.
I do miss you though. I miss your hugs, and I miss your voice.
Hope to see you soon.
...
September 2011
3 posts
Woah.
It’s gotten to the point where I just want to see you. I want one “Hey”. I don’t care if it has any emotion. If you don’t even look at me. I just want ONE acknowledgement.
Holy. shit.
You just messaged me on facebook. Weirdest moment of my life. SO HAPPY(:
It’s amazing how much that just boosted my mood.
Haven't written in a while...
… I guess it’s just cause I haven’t really talked to you…
until last night. It was a great conversation, you haven’t been that enthusiastic to talk to me until then. I’m so glad when I told you I missed you, you said you missed me too. I didn’t really expect anything. But, I’m so glad you said it back. I still like you a lot, but I really like this...
Missin' you, boy.
I’m not sure when I’ll see him again. But I really miss him. Knowing he mentioned me the other day, just makes me so happy. I think he misses me. I hope he misses me. Definitely not as much as I miss him I’m sure. But let’s hope this new guy helps a little:)
August 2011
15 posts
We'll see...
Well, there’s this new guy… I’m not sure how I feel about him right now. But I feel like I would like a chance with him. Right now I’m trying not to start out in a friend mode. Because if I get rejected there will be no excuse for us being friends. So, right now I’m just trying to be really flirty. He has a great personality… Not the best body, but…...
Q.
Only a select few will know what this post is about…
But I REALLY miss this person. ALOT. This person was the only one that made me happy. This person helped me get over Troy, a little. But when I didn’t see this person anymore, I liked Troy as much as before. I wish I could see this person more, a lot more. Cause honestly I want to be with this person, so bad…
Yes I could tell you, his favorite color's blue....
"I hope you find it, what you're looking for."
I want to erase him from my memory. He doesn’t care about me. He never did and he never will. I want to tell him everything, from the complete bottom of my heart. I don’t know when I’ll be over him. I’m beginning to cry while typing this. I love him so much, it honestly hurts to type this, and know that I’ll never get that chance. I’ll never get that chance to...
Get to see him soon
I miss my Troyboy.
I really miss him. School’s coming up. Dear god. What am I supposed to do? No classes with you. Not even in the same school with you. I’ve been in all the same classes with you for 2 years… This isn’t good. I don’t know what’s gonna happen. I’m just hoping and praying you’ll still talk to me.
It’s going on 3 years…
<3.
Woah.
Woah. I didn’t think about him alll day until now.
That’s really weird.
Our conversation.
Had the funniest, most amazing, best conversation I’ve had in a while with Troy today. So glad we’re on speaking terms. I really just don’t know what I’ll do when school starts…
This is my favorite picture of Troy and I.
I’m not completely sure why. Maybe it’s cause,
It’s a little blurry.
It shows how close he’s holding me.
It’s not a perfect picture.
It shows he’s taller than me, finally. (:
I love his hand around me.
I think I just love how perfectly, imperfect it is. ♥
I love, Troy Lake.
SHIT.
No, I can’t like him. And i don’t now. and i won’t start.
nononononononono.
okay. im good. he’s just a friend. STOP FALLING FOR YOUR FRIENDS.
Dangit.
Well...
This is the time I really begin to miss you… No particular reason, just the little things that remind me of you. Or something reminds me that I’ll never have you. I don’t know… I’ve been thinking and I’m so worried about next year. More worried than I’ve ever been about anything. I just want you here with me. Now. I couldn’t think of anything that...
Troy? Who's Troy?
Eh… who am I kidding? … But I’m slowly losing feelings.
OH BUT WAIT, when I see them, they’ll ALL come back!
Wonderful.
I hate
being so ugly. I hate being so fat. Most of all, I hate that no guys even ever give me a chance.
Fuck it.
July 2011
6 posts
Finally.
Well, last night.
Him- “Hey do you need any help with that?”
Me- “Yeah sure, thanks.”
For some reason it just made my whole night. First off, he talked to ME first. Then he offered to help me with something? Then he texted me after. Then IM’d me on facebook. Couldn’t be happier right now. Everything’s falling into place. ♥
Okay I'm beginning to get really frustrated.
WHY. DOESN’T. HE. LIKE. ME?):
I just don’t understand.
- The hugs I get, are so much longer than everyone elses.
- Your profile picture is of me and you.
- When we hangout you don’t leave me alone.
I know this sounds really stupid. But, just the way he acts towards me, when we’re together…. you could basically call us soulmates.
Yesterday.
I didn’t see him for a month, or so. I didn’t think he’d come. Of course I thought he’d bail. But we hangout. I thought I was almost over him, OH GOD I’m stupid. Everything was perfect yesterday. Like I never left. Like we’ve never fought before. Like we were bestfriends. It was so amazing. I just wish I had more time with him. 4 hours or so, just isn’t...
June 2011
13 posts
Troyboyy.
Leaving for camp soon. A month without talking to you. Hopefully I can get by. But ya know, I’m doing pretty well right now for not seeing you. I haven’t even left yet, and I can’t wait to see you. <3 i love you, still.
I’m just waiting for you to talk to me.
So, whenever you’re up to it. (:
<33bye.
Time's up.
Well, today was it. I won’t see you again, for a month. I’m gonna miss you alot. But you kinda acted like you didn’t care, when I said I wasn’t going to see you for a month…
But, if you care, you’ll talk to me…
As for the other person,
Wow, all I can do is smile. ♥
1/2 a day.
Well today was amazing. Everything I could’ve asked for. The long note you wrote in my yearbook made me cry. Sad, and happy tears. Happy because of all the amazing things you said. Sad, because well, this is it. Last day with you in the same school. But today was amazing. Got a picture with you too. I just, I love you so much. I can’t believe I have to leave to go to camp so soon. I...
2 days.
Wow, finally down to two days. Two. I can’t believe it. I’m down to the last 14 hours. Please don’t forget about me. I’m so sad. I just, I’m not ready for it to end. I love you so much Troy.
4 Days. ):
I just love being with you. Every second I have this week I’m trying to spend it with you. Fuck playing hard to get, this is my last week, and I WILL spend time with you. No matter what it takes. I won’t see you tomorrow:( I hope you text me.
TODAY IN CLASSS<3. When you were playing chess with Mr. Wiener you were shaking cause you were so nervous. Cutest thing, ever. ♥
You...
/:
I hate seeing all of these other girls all over him. You don’t like him, just stop!…
It makes me want to cry…
6 days.
Last night was the most confusing night of my life. I don’t know what to do with you. Nothing was bad, at all. But just, the way we’re talking is just gonna make me miss you more, come summer, and next year. It’d just be so much easier to forget about you, and not talk to you. You’re just making this harder for my heart, and it’s slowly breaking. But, I love you. This...
7 days. ♥
Dance tomorrow. I can’t wait to see you, I’m sure you’ll look gorgeous. It would completely make my night if you gave me a compliment. Seriously, I’d faint. I’m just ready to look really pretty tomorrow. Hopefully blow him away. ♥
I still wish he was my date. But I’ll get over it.
Love you babe.
See you tomorrow.
8 days.
Well, you didn’t text me tonight. But today was cute<3 it was funnn. Troy even though I might get pissed at you sometimes cause I want everything done my way. But I still love you. <3.
I’m so upset with myself for not passing the EOC’s. I couldn’t concentrate in a room of really smart people. I just couldn’t do it. I get so intimidated. I’m glad I get to...
9 days.
SO, I love waking up to goodmorning texts from you<3 Overall, good day. I just thought I might say I LOVE when you walk past me, and we feel the need to at least brush up against eachother, and I know we do it purposely♥. I hope you text me tonight. :] ILOVEEYOUUSOSOSOMUCH.
9 days.
9.
Yeahhh...
Hahaha, I filled my bulletin board with pictures of you:)
Today was, average. <3.
But any day just seeing you is amazing.
May 2011
27 posts
The both of you.
I hope tomorrow will be good… Even though I’m not gonna be in all my classes with you tomorrow, I still get one period of you ALL TO MYSELF. <3 can’t wait.
But today was kinda weird… I hit you with a ball first of all…. Sorry about that…
Ha, you’re adorable<3
The other person.
I don’t know… You still have my heart. I love the feeling...
Damn.
So uh, damn. You’re so hot.
First time in a year I’ve seen you at the pool. I couldn’t take my eyes off you.
& then, THE OTHER PERSON WAS THERE. Best day ever! I was in heaven!
But I’m kinda confused, cause you barely talked to me, and you were with some bitch, SISSY. What kinda fucking name is that… You probably like her now. I saw you holding her around the...
I would give anything to be skinny. Anything.
The past two days.
The past two days have been amazing. Just, everything. Working with him one on one with a project, really gives us time to just laugh and talk with eachother. I can’t explain how happy I am. He finally got his phone, and he texts me, FIRST. I’m going to miss him so much this summer, and next year. But when it comes down to it, he’s just a middle school love. None of this will matter next year,...
Mmm.
Some girl- “Truth is…You look pretty hot!”
For some reason I looked at the post…
Looked at him.
Just realized how hot he really is.
C'mon now...
I miss him. Can’t wait to see him Monday.
I really just wish he would ask Sarah to the dance already.
I need to get it through my thick head that he isn’t asking me.
But the only reason I haven’t gotten it through my head yet, is cause he won’t ask anyone.
Geez.
Some people really piss me off at times. Like, just stfu. no one cares.
Sometimes...
Dyl- “Hey babe.”
Me- “Heyy.”
Dyl- “What’s up babydoll?”
I don’t know… Sometimes, I just kinda wish he was mine.
HAHAHA.
“And you’re one of the prettiest girls I know!”
REALLY? HAHAHAH, dat bitch ugly.